I Guess This is Life?

I feel so much guilt for existing right now. I feel guilty going to work, knowing that I am risking exposing myself and others to a deadly disease simply so I can experience “normal post graduation life” and not live at home with my parents. I feel guilty about how much I care and how much I don’t care, how quickly I adjusted to this new way of life. I feel complacent in the hundreds of thousands of deaths simply for existing in a system that forces us to endanger ourselves and others in order to exist. But mostly I just feel numb to it all, numb to the guilt, numb to being pissed off at our government, numb to the fact that every time I walk into work I could be trailing a deadly disease with me like a cape. And I feel guilty for feeling numb. 

-Hildebrandt